I SoOoOo low in morale...
Have a strong sense of "du-lan" to the extend of a lost of direction...
This has been affect my day to day performance... knowing this had been trying to resolve this...
After much understanding, I'd realised that my "du-lan-ness" was and is due to the prolong and perpetual period of being taken for granted... in all aspects of life...
People who know me will know I tend to be taken advantage and I'm okay with that...
However, I realised that when putting much efforts to be "taken advantage", I really expect some form of appreciation...
An example will be my efforts to innovate and better cross department workflow...
As I'm falling sick lately, I'd requested support to be given and started pushing back to the individual department... since I'd already established a comprehensive process...
Yet, it back fire on me... turn out this IS part of my work... crazy.. when the freaking head of department don't even remember who am I...
Am I that dumb?
The same goes for the relocation / promotion / salary revision that was promise that never happened...
Many other things, other than work, like organising holiday trip or gathering etc...
Just felt very imbalance to see how much I'd put in when others don't...
Even worst, they don't even care... when confronted... it seems to had became my JOB...
Why am I making so much efforts and energy into what seems my JOB (actually not) and losing my own stuffs?
How can I balance my life, wants & desires, people I care & work?
My work is still my pride, friends & family is what I hold close... but are they worth my suffering???
Monday, 24 November 2008
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Ven Ajahn Bramavamso once said, any place you don't want to be, is your prison. If you feel unhappy coz of way yr company treats you, you can either seek another job or do your best to change your attitude to your job. Try to see things from another perspective, in a way, like liking your job, that your company gives you an opportunity to earn some income when people are retrenched elsewhere. Take your situation as a blessing.
Work is endless. There are a lot of additional things not stipulated in employment contract that we have to do as well. You are really not alone. But as long as you enjoy the process, you will be happy...your attitude changes everything.
Different people offer appreciation in different ways. Some offer in terms of treats or monetary rewards or gifts. For me, I offer my appreciation to people via words (call, emails or meetings) to comfort, encourage and help others.
I am usually the one who organize secondary sch class gatherings, university friends class gatherings, even Phuket friends gathering...there will be times, you feel tired of it, that it's thankless fagging. But when you look back after having enjoyed yourselves at gathering, you will realize the effort you put in are well worth it. You derive satisfaction in seeing the joy, laughter on yr friends' faces at the gathering when they enjoy themselves...
Hope you will feel better soon...be strong and hang in there...
Some pple show appreciation and care by writing on friends' blogs. Do you know it takes time, effort, energy to think and write too? ;p
Just want to take the opportunity to thank you for teaching me many life's lessons and touching my life in an ultimately positive way...Take care, be strong, stay cheerful and positive, no matter what life throws at you ;)
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