Had been trying to do a reality check on myself before taking the next step moving forward...
Come to understand that given my lack of family support etc and my below average childhood... I had to fight for every bits that I hold now, and overly protective on everything...
Like every late bloomers, I am eager to make up lost time, working doubly hard trying to be on par with the rest of my peers...
Then it dawned upon me that I'm like a frog climbing up and wet cliff... I'm heading no where... to make it worst, the moment I stop trying, I'll fall back down...
I'm really tired and would love to take a break from all the work and efforts, but I could never let the efforts of all these years go... and would I ever be able be back on track?
I wonder...
Looking at my frens who led a willful teen age, they are able to catch up with sheer determination and family support... I guess I'm not as lucky...
So what should my next step be....
Sunday, 3 February 2008
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2 comments:
you will never be on par with your peers because you were never happy with yourself and who you are. Dont measure your success based on what they have achieved. If you keep thinking how shortchanged you are cos of lack of family support and so called less than average childhood, then you will continue to be blind to the things that you have now and have achieved. Nothing will ever appear good enough. Dont pressure yourself to achieve what others have. Work and live for yourself. Not because of and not for others.
I really see so much good and potential in you Des.. i just hope that you will have more confidence and positivity. Maybe a part of you wants to feel this down because you think this is your life.. ive been there and i know how it is. The light will come one day.. just believe in it and be more positive. I really hope you will see it.
sally
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