My DaYz WiTh JoNeS WoRkInG fOr BiLL

Moving on...

2009-05-31T20:15:00.001-07:00

please find me @:

http://bj-jci-ms.blogspot.com/

It's the final count down...

2009-05-27T23:12:00.001-07:00

HmMm sorry guys, it's been awhile since I'd last updated...
Had been really tied up with all the transition process and all the farewell gatherings...

Very soon... this blog will be put to a close and I'll be missing every bits...
Time to move on and hope I wouldn't drown in the South China Sea...

Sleepless nights @ Singapore

2009-04-30T01:03:00.000-07:00

...
Haven't been getting enough sleep, don't even need to talk about quality sleep...
Maybe too much things floating in mind...
*Bird Brian Overload*

Well, if you have been following my facebook, you'll know hat I'm going through critical decision making process, once again...
However, this time I'm not going to hesitate and miss the opportunity...

It's de facto, internally, that late nights thought processing is bad for sleep...
My external environment isn't helping much either...
Air-con was down during the most stuffy days, and mom waking up in the middle of the night watching T.V.

I can't take these much more... time to move on...
*Decision Made*

...C'est la Vie...

kopi anyone?

2009-04-20T07:49:00.000-07:00

Having kopi alone now...
Kopi anyone?

C'est la Vie

2009-04-16T19:14:00.000-07:00

Things aren't really smooth...
It's hard and getting harder...

I guess, I was and am never comfortable to allow the external (surroundings) to determine my outcome... I'm always the aggressive type and not passive...
It's time to learn...

Let nature take it's course...

I'm just leaving everything to the people around me, people who cares...
Giving faith that things will turn out to my best interests...
Also cutting myself some slack...

Thou Shalt See...

Down with flu...

2009-04-16T18:57:00.000-07:00

Have been down with flu since Last Friday...
Was thinking I got better... apparently not...
It's Friday again, yet my head is sooooo heavy...

I swear it would have rolled off if my hands were supporting them...
*Drama - mama*

Need a good rest over the weekend?

Keeping strong and holding personal beliefs...

2009-04-07T02:56:00.000-07:00

Many things happened lately...
I'm trying hard to do things the usually way; the right way; my way, anyway you wanna call it... However, things just aren't working out...

Reality often sucks... Truths often hurts...
Holding the fort for the Rights is so tiring...

I can't believe why people can believe the wildest rubbish...
I guess they just chose to believe the most convenient "Right"...

Having doubts of being Mr. Nice...

Maybe I should join the dark side...
(I know I can better than them)

KLD Bento

2009-03-26T18:32:00.000-07:00

RockZzZzZz...

2009-03-23T01:03:00.000-07:00

Watched "Departure" recently...
Was under the false impression that it was a scary movie... what a let down...

Well, but it was still a good movie...
There was story about how ancient people communicated using rocks given the absence of words...
The feelings were communicated but the touch and weight of the rocks...

I know I have a couple rocks with me when I die...
Just wondering if anyone will be holding my rocks with they leave...

:<

Feeling good...

2009-03-11T20:24:00.001-07:00

Was feeling not so good...

down with flu to be exact...
recovering slowly but surely...

taken for granted

2009-03-07T23:19:00.000-08:00

so sick and tired of being taken for granted by everyone... Getting really tired...

an example would be the money ppl owed me... If you wanna return just return, if not just tell me that you don't have the money and no intention to return.... So sick to be hanging on a thread...

Really pissed...

Updates~!

2009-03-01T19:33:00.001-08:00

hMm it's been awhile since I'd blog...
But lately, I'd realised that there are a number of persons who read my blog...

:P

Anyway things haven't been good but I can't complaint...

Just feeling worn out lately... heehee...

Gotta plan for a vacation soon... Muahhahahahha...

Living the life...

2009-02-09T21:55:00.000-08:00

Had been visiting the doctor again...
hate this feelings... have to stop my jogging routine again... so sad...

Work has slowed down quite a bit...
Good and bad...

It's a good time to regroup and reorganise myself...
Lot to do... getting back bit by bit...

Bad since there is no more job security and market isn't exactly looking that good...

hMmMm.. i wonder...

Where has the Sun gone to...

2009-02-03T01:57:00.001-08:00

Feeling pretty contented recently... life is simple and no complains...

Really enjoy the simple things in life...

Talking about the simple things...
Everyone knows I love the Sun... lately it has been sooo windy and cloudy...

Where is my Sun? *Hump*

2009 will be a better year...

2009-01-28T17:40:00.000-08:00

Well, so far so good...

Lot of small tiny problems here and there, but I'll not let that cloud my vision...
A lucky thing happened yesterday... I found my long lost stylus hahaha...
Hope it is a good sign ahead...

YahOoOoOooOoOo...

A great x-mas card...

2009-01-27T23:12:00.000-08:00

Really late posting but really have to post this...
Got a card from Robert... yes, a Xmas card in January... hahaha
The gift is okay, but the card is touching...

Well, all I can say is that I'd done it...
I'd manage to work myself to the "best employee for the year"...

People who read my old facebook profile will understand why this is meaningful to me...

LOL... :)

Year-End Party...

2008-12-04T19:13:00.000-08:00

A picture speaks a thousand words...

I feel (not so) good...

2008-11-24T17:42:00.000-08:00

I SoOoOo low in morale...

Have a strong sense of "du-lan" to the extend of a lost of direction...
This has been affect my day to day performance... knowing this had been trying to resolve this...

After much understanding, I'd realised that my "du-lan-ness" was and is due to the prolong and perpetual period of being taken for granted... in all aspects of life...

People who know me will know I tend to be taken advantage and I'm okay with that...
However, I realised that when putting much efforts to be "taken advantage", I really expect some form of appreciation...

An example will be my efforts to innovate and better cross department workflow...
As I'm falling sick lately, I'd requested support to be given and started pushing back to the individual department... since I'd already established a comprehensive process...
Yet, it back fire on me... turn out this IS part of my work... crazy.. when the freaking head of department don't even remember who am I...
Am I that dumb?

The same goes for the relocation / promotion / salary revision that was promise that never happened...

Many other things, other than work, like organising holiday trip or gathering etc...
Just felt very imbalance to see how much I'd put in when others don't...
Even worst, they don't even care... when confronted... it seems to had became my JOB...

Why am I making so much efforts and energy into what seems my JOB (actually not) and losing my own stuffs?
How can I balance my life, wants & desires, people I care & work?
My work is still my pride, friends & family is what I hold close... but are they worth my suffering???

New Hair Cut

2008-11-17T21:05:00.000-08:00

Not really new hair cut but lazy to post it... :)

Loans...

2008-11-16T06:31:00.001-08:00

I'm so surprised...
I thought HE will be back on track after the $ I'd "loan" him...

Sad to say, there are just jerks around who will never learnt...
Wasting all the money on girls...

I give up... no chance of getting the money back...
I should had jolly well spend it on girls myself~!

crazy... life is so funny... i work hard and yet... sighz!

Keeping my faith strong...

Feeling low...

2008-11-13T06:24:00.000-08:00

Feeling really low... in many ways...

Still haven't fully recover from my illness and the fact that my relocation plans were placed on hold...

Now, I'm feeling the $ crush... low in cashflow...
Spend a bucket for the coming Taiwan-Taipei and another loan package for a "fren" (SW).
Needless to say, I'm still pretty low from high expenditure on October...

:<

When will I reach rock bottom? I need to rebounce soon..

Updates....

2008-11-03T16:42:00.000-08:00

It's been awhile...
Things had been crazy...

Rouhui got married...
Mark is getting married and moving to the states...
Towliang is still puhsing for his relocation...
Ann Zai change gf again to the point i dunno who is who...
Ming just bought his swift sports and working on his modifications now...
Song is happy and selling rice @ golden shoe market...
Desmond is selling wantan mee @ golen shoe market...

So many things so little time to update...

Anyway for me.. I'm sick... just went back to army yesterday to get downgrade...
sighzZz

Relocation

2008-09-28T22:32:00.000-07:00

The thought of relocation has been in the air for awhile now...
Things aren't looking good since they can't really pay as well due to the economy down turn back in the US...

Still, I'd more or less decision to leave SG...

The thought process was simple for me...
It isn't why I should go but more of why should I stay...

I'd realised that there is little or nothing much holding me back in Singapore...
This finding is actually pretty disturbing to me...
Maybe I'm becoming more transnational or just maybe I don't have a life...

Either way, this isn't what I'd planned for myself...
Just wondering where did I made a wrong turn...

Wank Bang...

2008-09-28T22:30:00.000-07:00

Went to do some banking at JEC yesterday noon and was rather disturb with what I saw...
Felt really weak while I was driving towards Bt Timah for pool... of coz, I got involved (again) in an accident... which is my fault...

Still i managed to reach Bt Timah and "enjoy" my pool game...

Things are just not turning up well for me...
I'm really tired...

Meeting the team

2008-08-28T12:17:00.000-07:00

Went for the global summit and finally had the chance to meet the whole team...

I really enjoyed myself , specially all the cross geo and specialisation sharing had given me tons of take-aways...

Most of the team members were so eager to learn (maybe to impressed) has rekindle my passionate of my work...

Throughout the summit I made great efforts to interact and learn from everyone... sharing my experiences...

Eventually, I had an additional take-away from the organiser; Sliver Contributor of the Summit 2008

Thank you all... the fun... the lessons... the chance... the experiences

... ... too bad this should be the last one for me...

My India Trip

2008-08-28T12:11:00.000-07:00

Just back from India...
Heard so many things bad about India... still I was pretty comfortable there...

I'd enjoyed my time and truly felt appreciated...

The best feelings in the world, for me, is being able to help others who appreciates your assistance...

Went visiting Taj... It's really a great work on mankind...
An idealistic design with the help of a country's efforts over 22 years...
The feelings were mixed between being envy of the love the king had and reminded the harsh fact of life of the king...

I'll work my best to assist India Portfolio to excel other portfolio...

Cashflow Problem

2008-08-28T12:03:00.000-07:00

Never tot I'll be having such issue...
Cash Issue...

Had been rather below the water lately... started spending money without control...
thinking that this could actually make me feel better...

Maybe for a couple of hours, and back feeling meaningless... eventually when all the cash flow had been dried out... I felt worst...

Using cash as a form of mood treatment can never work unless you have an endless source of wealth... ... ...

Nearer to my Bday and my dayz are getting darker and darker...

2008-07-29T22:27:00.000-07:00

It's been awhile since I'd updated...
Reason being, as always, I was so packed with work and catching up my personal stuffs...
This time round, I was pretty sick too... had the most injections ever within a couple of days...
Things are looking bright for me... need to better look after myself...

Atypical moi, my statements bares hidden meanings... I heading India right after my birthday for business and a day of Taj...
Excited but moody, I guess...

Be Smart, Don't Act Smart

2008-07-02T00:21:00.001-07:00

The road of Self Discovery is ever constant, I'd managed to find out something about myself. In a way, I'm atypcial guy who goes for solution then empathy.
So discussions I'll try to make comments and recommendations, even though I make myself look silly. I really don't mind showing others how dumb I am, since I treat it as part of my learning curve... without "not knowing" you'll never know.

My point here is that I'm not trying to act smart and give solutions to the everyone, but trying to share my thoughts and hopeful someone smarter could help develop that tiny thought of mine...

Still, I'd learnt own perceptions often differs from the others... I'll try to keep my comments to myself... Use my own mind to develop my thoughts...

File-Sharing is a crime
Thought-Sharing is deviant

Haven't been blogging

2008-07-02T00:17:00.000-07:00

HmMm haven't been updating the blog since I hate to be lamenting over blog...
Especially when I read back my blog and get a refreshment of all the back memories...

Basically, I'm pretty worn out by everything... losing my stances I guess...

:)

Go Go... Jia you...

Near Accident

2008-02-25T17:20:00.000-08:00

Was late for work this morning again...

Got really pissed with the traffic users this morning... they are really taking their own sweet time, not always a good thing, and not following the traffic rules & regulations~!

I almost with an accident... sighzzz

What a day..... some more it's freaking cold today~!

My New Ride M3

2008-02-18T17:17:00.000-08:00

This is what kept me going...

2008-02-17T01:21:00.001-08:00

故天将降大任于是人也，必先苦其心志，劳其筋骨，饿其体肤，空乏其身，行拂乱其所为，所以动心忍性，曾益其所不能。

Author 孟子

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舜发于畎亩之中，傅说举于版筑之中，胶鬲举于鱼盐之中，管夷吾举于士，孙叔敖举于海，百里奚举于市。故天将降大任于是人也，必先苦其心志，劳其筋骨，饿其体肤，空乏其身，行拂乱其所为，所以动心忍性，曾益其所不能。
人恒过，然后能改；困于心，衡于虑，而后作；征于色，发于声，而后喻。入则无法家拂士，出则无敌国外患者，国恒亡。

Mon K' ... ...

2008-02-17T01:12:00.000-08:00

Wanted to head down to Bean to do my few reports ovr the weekend...

To my surprise, this is what I saw when I was about to drive off...

Happy Chinese New Year~!

2008-02-05T20:02:00.000-08:00

It wasn't that good a an evening last night, but always start a day feeling fresh...

Great morning... the sun was bright, the roads were smooth... I love the glare in my eyes... slightly cold weather for my comfort...

Things weren't exactly comfortable in office recently as well... watching people come and go, the turnover is way beyond norm (personal thinking)...
Nothing wrong... but just when everything was starting to be on track...
Not that this affect my work, I believe I'm still performing regradless of my many other problems, but it does dampen the mood and working environment...

Guess the market was just too good... or?
hMmMm...

Blogging now while waiting for the pictures of my k' to be in from TC... putting her up for sale... really no choice... but she gotta go... just when... when the price is right...

No matter what, it's CHINESE NEW YEAR... hahahaha I'm not that excited but I think i should be... :)

Oh ya... thanks everyone, but I'd just be rejected by the Japan Em... :)

Moving Forward...

2008-02-03T18:02:00.000-08:00

Had been trying to do a reality check on myself before taking the next step moving forward...

Come to understand that given my lack of family support etc and my below average childhood... I had to fight for every bits that I hold now, and overly protective on everything...

Like every late bloomers, I am eager to make up lost time, working doubly hard trying to be on par with the rest of my peers...

Then it dawned upon me that I'm like a frog climbing up and wet cliff... I'm heading no where... to make it worst, the moment I stop trying, I'll fall back down...

I'm really tired and would love to take a break from all the work and efforts, but I could never let the efforts of all these years go... and would I ever be able be back on track?

I wonder...

Looking at my frens who led a willful teen age, they are able to catch up with sheer determination and family support... I guess I'm not as lucky...

So what should my next step be....

Nice gifts...

2008-01-23T18:07:00.000-08:00

Some pretty nice and cool gifts...
(Not in order of preferrence)

Got this shirt from my Boss...
this "Ang Mo" got really fine taste...
just maybe 1/2 a size too big, but really nice shirt...
*Worn this today to work and everyone kept asking where I'm going later this evening... LOL...

This is cute... Got this from a mentor who left the company...
Without question the MS Monkey is Moi... but read the yellow sign carefully...

Oh ya, she gave me this book "The Monk who sold his Ferrari" really nice book... just 1/3 through, but would really find time to finish it...
If you have time to grab it...

I love the Sun~!

2008-01-23T17:47:00.000-08:00

Received complaints that this blog has not been updated for awhile... let's do some blog-ing this sunny morning...

Managed to work from home yesterday... enjoy the feeling of going out with the (sky) lights on...
Had been setting off for work before the sun rises and knock off way after the sun has set... really miss the sunny afternoons...

The last thing I'll do is to take the sun for granted...
Too many Gen-Y group doesn't appreciate the things in life...
All they want is to live for the moment... Taking everything around for granted...

Anyway went to get a hair cut alone... blah blah blah...
Went to cafe to do work... blah blah blah...

Great feeling~!
Good day~!

...I am Legend...

2007-12-26T22:30:00.000-08:00

Finally, I'd watched the show... so happy that I'd catch it...
Guess this movie is rather extreme, you either like it or hate it...
In general, I think it more for the ladies... not much sex or fighting just deep thoughts and feelings...

This entry is not for movie review...

I am an appreciative and empathise (too much) kinda guy ... I felt very strongly for the whole movie but there's one part that many will miss out...

He actually depicts a life struggle against the environment... I believe everyone, at one point of his or her life, felt that the everything is going against his or her way...

The most comforting part and realistic part of the movie is how he tried to kill himself and how he eventually did kill himself (I really don't think that act was necessary but desired)...

I'd always tried my best in everything, even when I was and am given the worst possible situation...
I fought hard to survive and even improve myself constantly... Trying to find a solution...
Still there (must) had always been a KEY driving force present; need not be encouragement or assistance but just companionship...
Without much a family and pretty much left with just "Sam" (watch the bloody movie)...
Losing her meant giving up... giving up on everything...

Even when the mother and son came to give him support, encouragement and companionship...
...after the battle has lost and won...
(I think) He is too tired to carry on... he just wanna a way out...

I'd also been stretching my limits... without support... without anything...
I'm tired...
I really think it's time cross over to the next episode...

Merry X-mas

2007-12-25T22:28:00.000-08:00

Nothing much I wanna say about my X-mas eve...

:)

National Tresaure

2007-12-20T19:56:00.000-08:00

Wanted to enjoy myself yesterday... go out catch the moive; "I am Legend"...

Too bad things didn't turn out that nice... very sad...

anyway I still managed to catch the show national treasure...
not really that nice... or maybe I just too demanding...
With my lousy mood and need really good movie to make me feel anything...

X-mas gifts...

2007-12-20T19:01:00.000-08:00

X-mas is around the corner...

Gave quite a bit... received some too...

First was a "executive's car" car plate, car rag and a notice stand with funny captions...
The stand is really a great gift... I noticed that on her desk and asked about it and she rem... that's really thoughtful...

then a set of cuff lings and tie pin... looks really expensive... kekeke

then a handy, casual office sling bag and a money clip~! finally money clip~!

Anymore to come???

:)

Oh yah... one more... from the Singapore Police Force...
$150 fine with deduction of 6 points...
BEST~!

Tried / Tired / re-Tired

2007-12-18T00:32:00.000-08:00

Relating to one of my earlier posting... had been really working my ass to get things running in my life...
At times, I wonder if I'm the impatient guy who can't get wait for mother nature to work her magic... Nope, it wasn't the case for me... once I stop trying I fall way back...

Anyway I'd really TRIED making the best out of everything I do...
And now, I'm really TIRED of doing all the things I did...
At last, I am going to RETIRED from everything around me...

Don't why people around me don't get it...
I have pretty high threshold for all sorts of shit, due to my past ordeals...
but that it not fair to treat me as a ready to use public toilet...

Flushing all the shit into me... I accept it cause I empathise...
Still, please stop throwing shit at me...

Thank you...

一個人

2007-12-17T18:15:00.001-08:00

<<一個人>>
作詞：管啟源　作曲：黃韻仁　編曲：黃韻仁

從皮包裡抽出我們的照片　沙發要移到客廳的另一邊
晚飯後你可以多嚐幾口香煙　已經沒有什麼人會埋怨

今天　陰天　今天又是星期天　唯一的打算是醒得晚一些
反正我不知道怎樣打發時間　出門或不出門沒差別

一個人到底應該睡右邊或左邊　兩個人連一次爭吵都值得紀念
一個人偶爾感到寂寞在所難免　你的氣味還留在枕頭邊

一個人我重新適應一切不方便　兩個人不一定就成全一個世界
一個人關燈看見記憶的橫切面　沒有光線過去那些情節更明顯

更明顯...

Just paid for my k's road tax and insurance...

2007-12-10T23:19:00.000-08:00

I'm sooo sianzZz...
Totally broke...
Had a bit of savings but my road tax and insurance were due and...
somemore I'd spent quite a bit in Nov...

:)

Nvm... FY08 will be a better year~!~!~!~!

Deadly KPE

2007-12-10T18:24:00.001-08:00

...

Sad to say... I got lost and went into KPE...

It was a lousy experience...

Didn't see any speed limit nor and cam warning...
Wasn't thinking much, chatting away, and didn't notice the speed I'd went...

Saw a flash in the tunnel...

I think I'm dead meat...

LOL

SzeLing's wedding...

2007-12-10T18:19:00.000-08:00

Nice feeling to be chatting with old school mates...
Some stupid pictures we took...

Just another day...

2007-12-06T17:16:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was interesting enough...

Started the work day upset, and ended the work day even worst...
Found out the one of the MS staff is leaving... there goes one of my channel for learning...
Old guards should be valued for their experience and contributions... but...

Ended the day eating at my Aunt's "zi cha" store and pool in Taman Jurong... it's funny to meet ah Nig... but didn't really have the chance to play a game with him...

When off pretty early, feeling tired... emotionally draining...
Slept like a baby till 7am (yesh i'm late again)

Well, I'd really tired of "fighting" for everything...

Lovely Morning...

2007-12-03T17:01:00.001-08:00

A good Tuesday morning...
Unloaded quite bit for the past few days...

On Sunday, watched two great (funny) shows...
On cable, was the "My gf is a special agent" - dumb dumb Korean show... LOL
At JP, watched the long awaited "Hero"... pretty sad that I'd missed the special esp on TV... I'd watch them all expect that esp... Freak...
Still it was really funny... and had a Jap couple sitting behind and I was like eavesdropping all the way...

What else??? when to GlennEagles twice, nothing much to say there...

HmMmMmMm tried getting my CPF invested, but damn hard to find a capable person to invest for me... still looking... any takers?

Went to my Manager's place for the first time... the place is great, but I'm surprised with the rental he is paying that's pretty small... damn the local developers...

Got myself a hair cut... maybe that's why I felt refresh... and yes... I gave up my "long-hair" dream kekeke
short short hair...

:)

Bought my wine...

2007-11-28T17:49:00.000-08:00

Went down rail mall last night...
walked around, things have changed significantly there... not like my army daze...
got myself two bottle of wine...

Also went down for pool at Bt timah... met my Ex director at the lobby...
chatted breifly...

With nothing much to do, I took a stroll home... it's been awhile since I'd walked home...
Nothing good or bad... just something I haven't been doing...

X-mas is the time for giving or forgiving?

2007-11-25T18:11:00.000-08:00

X-mas is here...
It's time to forgive and "for gifts"...

Well, had been done much injustice by many this year... still I believe 08 will be better... and shall start them off on a clean sheet...

Went around shopping for gifts too, didn't "win" much... just got a simple gift for someone... I don't think the gift was much appreciated, but well I did my best wor...

Anyway there are more damages to come... sighzZz will be seeing red all over my bank book... but wat to heck... it's X-mas...

May all you wishes come true...

Happy Holiday Season~! Ho Ho Ho...

I dun think my heart can take this...

2007-11-25T16:56:00.000-08:00

HmMmMm
I believe my heart is getting weaker... after the lousy two weeks... it's getting worst... last night... sigh...

Went home last night after a spin around with k, sat in front of the TV and start looking and the papers...
this news hit me lot, not knowing why then, it was about the SIM or SMU dragon boat rowers... the one which represented Singapore and met with an accident...

Knowing tons of people in Dragon boat... but looking at it as "students" nothing to caught my eye... but the news still got into me...

Only just, this morning, a sms telling me that a fren's bro was one of them...
suddenly my lousy mind started working... I should have noticed that...
Guess my brain isn't working as effectively as it used to be (Damn, my heart now my brain)...

anyway I believe it's Jeremy G... If my lousy brain still working good enough...

I'm lost of words... take care Norm...

Freak... my heart take these shit anymore...

想想我

2007-11-22T23:32:00.000-08:00

谁说爱就应该要拥有
我选择为你默默守候
你和他会有什么结果
我的爱从不离你远走

很清楚爱不到的难过
也许真地会一无所有
爱一个人不需要理由
只要你幸福就以足够

但愿你幸福时候想想我
为你付出过的温柔
要知道这几年来是你掌控
我的情绪起起落落
就算难过我还是要承受

但愿你寂寞时候想想我
曾为你付出那么多
要明白爱一个人不需要理由
更不用问我为什么
我不放手

JF X-mas Party

2007-11-22T17:31:00.000-08:00

Was down at Loof, a place I really wanted to go with that someone special (if that someone even remembers), to attend this X-mas party organised by JF...

"Who let the dogs out... Roof... Roof x3"

Bit about this Loof before I go on...
Loof was and is known for it's design and concepts, of cuz the value for smokers & urban-ians love for sweet cityscape...

Capitalising on these factors, the famous Archi firm (WH) made an extension to the roof top and created a rustic feel within this contemporary locality...
Effect and impact is award winning... as most WH projects...
The detailing is impressive...

Met with tons of people there... mostly expats and a few locals...
Made a few friends and learnt a few lessons from each...

Wanted to grab a cab home, but the streets were really packed and well decorated (I must comment...
So I ended up on the train back home...
On my much await ride home...
I'd people watched... basically couple watched...
Realised I'd missed the time we took public transport together...
the way I had to travel all the way back alone, but it was worth every penny and min...

Well, even I'd asked, this would not happened again... things just aren't the same...
Don't know why and don't wanna know why...

My Heart Scan

2007-11-21T17:40:00.000-08:00

The attached is my ECG scan result...

Nothing much to understand... what caught my eye is my height LOL 1.78?
Since when I grew shorter le... I guess I'm hunching more and more...

Looking at my result... I was remindered of the lady who died while working at home... sighx

Some testi

2007-11-20T17:34:00.002-08:00

Following up with the previous entry, would like to share some of the heart warming testis, dunno when they will get del away...
i the part that I really relates to...
(From oldest to newest)
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Kang Min
Posted 10/15/2003 08:15 AM

10 yrs long time buddy.....desmond is
someone who u muz get tog long enuff
to fully understand him.....hey
there!!! always treasure the memories
of dealing with the sec 1s
tog....acting lao
lan....hahaha....great to have u wif
me in jjc lion dance also......hope to
see u more often man!!!! stay happy
always des!!!!
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Richard
Posted 10/16/2003 3:53 PM

hmm... being friend for 10 years, feel
that des is a friendly and helpful
person if u know him well. will always
remember the days in jjc and especially
in gess (although its siong)
anyway, hope that everything goes well
for u and good luck.
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aDrIan
Posted 10/17/2003 01:45 AM

know demon since primary sch.and also
been thru the same sec sch and
jc.....keke...wah....veri veri long
time liaoz....a friendly and helpful
guy!...though sometimes might hv mood
swing once in a while..then must be a
bit careful not to tread on his
toes..haha...if not later how u die
also dunno...*_*..but overall still a
nice guy and a friend worth
having..haha...=p...eh...got time come
out more often to the outings leh...
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Wesley
Posted 10/25/2003 10:48 AM

Desmond is a great buddy in my NS, dun
play play hor, he is the best trainee
during our course in STTS. I also not
bad, I am the course leader..hehehe. We
always make fun with each other. He
give me an impression that he always
try to be a great lover though he dun
really master the skill. That's the
good point he has, he is not a playboy.
A great friend I will not forget.
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MnM oOo Kris
Posted 11/07/2003 02:32 AM

Heard abt ya even before I met ya..
yupz... tt's how notorious Mr Kyochi
here is... haha. Kidding.
Only got to know you through Sharon
and co. and by then u ppl were getting
along so well I tot tt there wun be
room for mi... heh. But u've proven mi
wrg... I see a potential friend in the
making... corny jokes and all. Nice to
knoe you... looking forward to seeing
ya ard more often in sch! Be sure to
take care of my best gal pal okies? ;p
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Michelle Ray
Posted 11/28/2003 07:17 AM

wah haha desmond ah...er... haha thanks
for your flattery man... haha erm dun
know this guy v much but from what i
see and know, he has an interesting
character. He seems to have a split
personality too haha! sometimes like
buddies and very funny, sometimes like
so cold like that wor (or u act
cool?!)! haha... well, great to know
this kyochi and wish him happy always!
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Zhao Feng
Posted 11/28/2003 07:39 AM

YOzz...Know Desmond when we were im
JC.... he is a damn "knowledgeable"
person...i will never forget that how
he educacted me and some of the boys
in our class...hehe....He is always
very crappy and humouorus...Glad that
we are in the same Faculty man....But
rem next time when u sms me pls type
somthing that i can read and not ur
stupid shortform which me and Jing dun
even knw what the hell u trying to ask
and ALSO pls type everything in one
sms !!!!! and not spilt them up
ok!?..haha..Des a helpful and funny
person...see u soon man!!!
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Christopher
Posted 11/28/2003 08:43 AM

Bro bro...very time so F**king
pervert...like to hit my
butt...perharps his jealous i got a Gd
body...HEHEHEHE.....He use to have
mood swing during our NPCC
days...haizz..always wonder Y he like
tat last time...but now,seen him
change...tat's good. So how's life???
i jus finish my exam recently
leh.....Keep in touch!!!!
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Rachel
Posted 12/01/2003 08:39 AM

well,what can i say...seems to be
enjoying himself while working and can
really make all the aunties laugh so
effortlessly,a ladies man
certainly.have only seen the cheerful
and happy side of him..so far so
good..wishing him and sharon all the
best and study hard for your remaining
years in nus hor..feel free to borrow
any more super duper powerful untidy
notes(haha) from me next time,hope they
have been of some help.take care!
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YongChin
Posted 12/02/2003 8:41 PM

Yo Desmond ho se bo?! Know desmond in
jjc and now even same course in
NUS...He's a very talented person
among our group of frens...he's the
only one gd in making Flash,gd in his
studies,got a nice gf,a gd cooker who
knows how to make gd sushi.....aiya!!!
gd in everything lah!!! List out all
of it makes pple blood boil =P
Anyway,would like to thank you for the
help u shown me all these years and
have a wonderful holiday staying at
home slack! hehe...i see u in 1
month's time bac in SDE.
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Weipin
Posted 12/10/2003 01:44 AM

yoz des..paiseh ah now then write
testimonial for u..realli busy
recently hehe..noe des since my sch
days...at tat time he jus stay a few
blocks away from mi n we always go sch
together hehe...rem got a period we
always took cab cos always woke up
late n lazy to walk in haha..glad tat
we still keep in touch..hope to see u
soon..got time cum my hall sit sit
lahz hehe....
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kO kEi
Posted 12/18/2003 10:18 PM

Kyochi is such a dear.. and he's super
good in his studies.. works really hard
in nus wanting to provide a better life
for his gf.. his gf must be such a lucky
ger.. :P
an amiable guy who tolerates all his
gf's nonsense.. now that's what is
lacking in most guys nowadays..
Kyo is also a 'zui ying xin ruan'
person.. he may appear unconcerned and
bo chap but he really cares deep in his
heart.. he's actually a very warm person
inside.. :P
kudos to this one in a million guy..
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The Slacker
Posted 01/13/2004 08:25 AM

Hello Mingzong!!I know you since JC,and
in army,we also from the same camp.To
me,you're a very determined person who
will not give up easily no matter
what's the circumstances.Have a soft
heart,so girls don't bully him too much
leh.Other than that,he has a sense of
humor,like to tell jokes very much.But
frankly speaking,I dn't think your
jokes are funny.I'm just forcing myself
to laugh when you tell a
joke.Haiz...You very sad liao
hor.Anyway,take care of yourself and
wish you success in whatever challenges
you meet.Good Luck!!
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Raizal
Posted 02/19/2004 5:40 PM

yo yo yo...making friend with him was
the biggest mistake i made.. no
lah...He is the best friend i have had
so far..." friendly, kind and funny.He
is my gay partner in crime... always
there to help me unless there are
better looking babe around... But I
think he love me more than his
girlfriend..he he..
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Lauren
Posted 02/25/2004 08:16 AM

hmm hmm hmm .... didnt know him well
enuff to write 10000 words for him ...
hahaha ... but cannot tahan him
voice .. so gentle ... hey be a man
and sound like a man !!! hahaha ...
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Michelle
Posted 01/28/2006 11:24 PM

So sad..He's blamin me affectin his report...wan to cry liao :( Hmm...Dun c him so si wen lidat...actually he's super bian tai lor..haha...Only i noe y he's lidat..He only tok n look serious when he's doin his report or driving...Haiz...Most of e time he always crappy w me..Bt still alot of gals like him to b like dis lor...Haiz...
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Jacqueline
Posted 06/08/2007 08:14 AM

hey Punggol Beng~ you really seem to only bother befriending girls! Know that you've been pretty stressed up, even the colorgenics personality test knows! Hang in there boy~
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My Old Frenster back on service...

2007-11-20T17:34:00.001-08:00

Due to some favours for favours...
I'm surprised, but I understand, why that my old old frenster account wasn't del...

Just visited it and read thru the testi... felt so heart warming...
maybe its a good thing that it wasn't del away...

anyway if any fren reads this...
add me again and you'll be added to my new account...

kyochi13@netscape.net

Cherry or Chevy???

2007-11-20T17:34:00.000-08:00

Couldn't really remember when was this, but really gotta blog this before brain stop working...

Was a lousy night, as per norm, and managed to get TC out for some drinks...
He brought me this place called Cherry Cherry... I'm like I tot Cherry is in Chinatown, the Thai Disco pub... anyway I just followed...

Ended up the logo was chevy... anyway who cares...

The crowd was like aunties and uncles... and I tot I was getting old... I guess they came from the old Canto LOL...
Some more they can line dance pretty impressively...

Well, the band was and is great... the trio is powerful singer each and excellent with their machine...

I was great music and relaxing... nice place to chill...

We met an Ang Mo there too, Pte Ryan and wanted me to sell his 3 bedroom penthouse for him...
Brokage isn't really what I wanted, but TC being a sales guru, I agreed to look into it... gave him my name card... hope that he wouldn't call me~!

It was the experience of the life time...
really must remember the date... should be 17th Nov 2007

What a night...

2007-11-19T17:43:00.000-08:00

Last night was great...
The best in my life...
Had a spin with K...
Went place I'd never been to...

*If you are my friend, you'll understand my post. (LOL)

...into the dark side...

2007-11-15T23:59:00.001-08:00

TGIF

2007-11-15T23:59:00.000-08:00

Ever since my social life stop giving me any utility, my work life started to creep over and tilt my whole work-life balance thingy...

From then, TGIF doesn't really matter to me anymore...

BUT

I'm really glad "Thank God Its Friday"

I have been having lousy weeks... I'm determined to change my luck this weekend to break the negative Qi...
I'll still work on Saturday but the whole of Sunday I wanna go some place or something different...
Will start planning this evening...

To all frens out there... don't think this is "old fashion"...
But i truly agree and amazed with the ancient knowledge of Yi Jing and within it water wind wind...

Still I'm an analyst and only believe in science about everything...
In this case... breaking away from the negative chi... is break away all the intangible burdens of emotions to regenerate and clam your soul...
sounds familiar? it's on all the advertisement for Spa... or getaway etc...

Taking a break for the trip to come...

Truly Spa / Truly Science

Rainy Season for all...

2007-11-14T20:33:00.000-08:00

Woke up feeling really cold and tired... The night before wasn't any better for me...
Really don't feel like going to work, but I did...

Got caught in the rain while heading to the train station... board the train and realised that I'd forgotten my pass... went back to my K, and got caught in the rain yet again...
Didn't really mind, it's been awhile since I'd enjoy the comfort of the pouring soul...

Guess I wasn't as strong as I used to be...
After a long day and night in office, I'm sick now...
Shivering cold and having chest pain...

It wouldn't be long...

Studying with Michelle

2007-11-12T16:18:00.003-08:00

Spent the weekend helping Michelle with her coming exams...
It wasn't easy... she had been skipping lessons and it had been awhile since she hits the books... But she was making efforts to understand and her work... (Finding time to slack now and then of cuz)
She didn't force me to, in fact, I enjoyed tutoring her...

That's something I really like about her, her positive and passionate attitude in life... especially dealing with too many people who gave in to life or shun away from responsibilities...

The main point of this blog is how memories came back to me...
I remembered how she was there during my last semester in NUS and wasted her time mugging with me... So sweet and caring towards moi... I fell in love then (not sure about her)...

It is a bitter sweet memory... and now that she's trying hard to study... I really want to do the same for her...

Go, Go, Jia You...

Tyranny of hope

2007-11-12T16:18:00.002-08:00

People watching has always been fun to me, and a learning experience to view the world from a different perspective...

It was long ago, I had started working and I went for kopi near NUS...
(Alone as per norm...)
Saw my juniors taking a break from their mugging... it was around the exam period...
Chatting with them stirred up m emotions quite a bit... the fun I had while I was schooling...
I'm just wasn't sure which part of it is the X-factor?

I love the late night mugging - I still do that at work ( :< )
I love the passionate profs - I do get a few good mentors around
I love the sharing learning - I do learn at work
I love the pretty girls around- There are quite a handful out there
... So what is it... It was the HOPE of good future;
A good result,
A good job,
A good income,
A good career,
A good relationship,
A good house...
Basically a good life ahead...

Taking a step back, you'll see the harsh reality of life has impounded one's hope to the extent that the "Tyranny of hope" sets in...

For those who aren't aware of this theory, it is actually the torture a person gets when pursuing a glimpse of hope...
More than often... it becomes a chase for nothing in return...

The Art of Saying I'm Sorry...

2007-11-12T16:18:00.001-08:00

As a typical Asian, or Singaporean, being humble and apologetic is a norm...
But over the years.. I'd learnt not to be too "sorry" for things you did... especially when it comes to work... People are fast to place blames and once you blurb out the "s" word, you are caught in catch22...

I once had an experience that taught me the Art of saying sorry...

It was a lousy evening, and it had been awhile since I'd contacted any of my old pals from study or work... So I text a mass sms to send my regards to all for them... (just being nice, like I'm always)... It was a massive sent that couldn't even remember the parties involved...

Then this gal fren of mine, whom I don't even know how she looked, kept text-ing me asking me things like how I am... what am I doing now... Am I sleeping or sleeping soon... etc...
All turn weird for me, and as always I didn't reply to entertain such lame sms-es... then she called...
I was thinking to myself... Oh my god... going get freak by her for not replying...
To my surprise, she called to scold me for making his bf and her fight by sms-ing her... and demanded me to "say sorry" to her bf...
Being lost, shock and disorientated, I did what I was told...

Putting down the phone, I'd realised how dumb I was...
The number was given by her personally, NOT to sms or call her???
I'm sorry that she had a screwed up relationship... BUT I'm nowhere near sorry for sending that nice gesture sms...
Madness, so I del her number the very next moment...

The lesson I'd learnt here is not to be so ready to say sorry...
In fact, over the years, I'd developed an Art of Saying Sorry...
(Very effective at work place)

Never say "Sorry" when you don't mean it or you can't do anything about it...
(Go sit on it... you'll get it.)

SPGs...

2007-11-12T16:18:00.000-08:00

People watching has always been fun to me, and a learning experience to view the world from a different perspective...

Got to know of this guy... not to be conspicuous, let's call him Eddie...

Eddie is a nice guy, working in mon industry as well, a few years senior than moi and drawing a few hundreds more, monthly...
A fortunate boy with a family that gives him all, a study in oversea university and even handing out money in time of need...
He currently has no asset but simple interest savings towards eight grand...
Had always question where did all the income went...
He would just proclaimed his lavish lifestyle... the wine and dine etc...

Still, I never really believed him... I had my period of the lavish lifestyle...
(did it with the intention to make myself happy but...)
I patronised the finest dining, frequent pubs and drank only liquor, got myself a private gym membership and even a exclusive club membership to some place in CBD...
To top it off, I still managed to service my car loan and clear my home bills...

Putting the pieces together, something is missing...
Recently, I had found out the missing puzzle, he was and is a repeated hotel stayer...
If you check his card bills, you'll see he went from cheap motels to expensive hotels, once a week or every fortnightly???

It's not something bad, like repeated gambler, that one may turn into a problematic gambler.
To be exact, my sister and brother do it all the time, sister with her family and my brother with his wife... Not as often but all the time...

The food for thought here is;

Who goes to the hotel with him???
Or should I put it clearly...
How does he get girls to stay at the hotel with him???

My answer till now is... SPGs

Lousy Headache....

2007-11-08T02:11:00.001-08:00

Had to worst headache of my life yesterday at work...
Was down with fever right from the start... but went to work as always...
I'm pretty worn out by work I guess...

Didn't had plans for the night... just another lonely night... so decided to meet up with my ex workmates to get my certs...

When I'd reached the headache was getting worst... chat awhile and left... but the chat was great...

We were talking about all the different jobs we are holding now and how the one that stayed is earning big bucks...

Well, of coz I'm earning lesser than what I would if I had stayed...
but as I explained my job nature to them, I realised how much I'd learnt within this short period...

In fact, I'd convinced, at the end of the day, that I'd made the right decision to reject the other offers...

:)

Question by a friend...

2007-11-08T02:11:00.000-08:00

Had been asked a question by a friend... find it really interesting and would like to share with all...

I'd always enjoy chatting with ppl, understand other and understand myself...

He was pretty upset that night, and wanted to get things off his chest and there I was...
I understand that he was upset about how his past gfs treated him...
He explained how his ex-s would always be buying the next bf expensive gifts... in fact when he was saving every penny to spend on his gf, they were spending all their $$ on the other guys...

LOSER~!

Of cuz I didn't say that, well I'm also every much guilty as charged LOL :)

I told him to clam down and see the way I see it...

Perceived Value & True Value

The meaning of these two terms are subjective to many...
If looked at the true value of the gifts, without saying, he is much inferior...
but the the value of gifts do not lies in the true value but its perceived value (unlike valuation or many other cases)

If they were to buy him those expensive stuffs would you be happier???
Simple answer is no...
So the gifts they gave him had more heart and soul... :)

Sound sweet?
I'd stop there with him... but let me continue here...

If you measure the anger involved when his ex-s spend on other guys' gifts... and add to the equation...
Simple answer is yes...
So the gifts they gave him were meaningless...

But this is the cruelty of life...

Cold Cold Sunday Night...

2007-11-04T17:14:00.000-08:00

It was raining since last night...
Didn't get to sleep well, not sure why...

Woke up 5.30am (as always), stone for half an hour and another half an hour...
HmMm...

Monday Blues???
Mid-life Crisis???

LOL

A month has past

2007-10-30T22:04:00.000-07:00

It has well been month into my new job, unable to consider it as my career as yet or ever...

Things are getting from busy to busier... nothing much I can do but do my fair share of work load...
Like what Marc said that it's only within your capabilities and control...
I think most of the things aren't within my control, all I could is to work more efficiently than always to keep myself head above water...

On the whole, I'm still enjoying what I do, I felt good well the deal goes well, even though there's not value tied to it...
On the other hand, I'd realised the value of having a value on your work scope...

Dollars and cents have always been one common motivation and it is very apparent in and around CBD...

Was having lunch with the guys (all my bosses) and listening to their conversations, learning and appreciating from their experiences... Was very enlightening listen to my boss from HK...
He controls tons of money and "tons" of manpower, yet he is yearning dearly to be what my boss in SIN does...

From the bits and pieces, I gathered, that he wants to be more involved in the business side of things, which implied the financial aspect of the business... by so meaning the revenue generating division...
The reason he gave me???
There's nothing much for him to learn in what he is and has been doing... he had done it all... Of course main part of it is how much $$$ he will be earning... just not sure which takes a higher weightage...
But guess from now, he needs to work "under" my boss to learn the ropes...

I still think that moving up the corporate ladder does not have a monetary value to it (like Alan Greenspan) but sense of achievements...
I also understand that without tangible rewards, task are harder and more time consuming...

The incident that set my thoughts going is my training this morning highlighted the fact:

Vendors are not partners... only profit generating business units are consider partners...

All I can say now is that I'm still contended with the amount of savings I generate for the company... for now... :)

IT is a Simple Life...

2007-10-23T18:24:00.000-07:00

Today is a typical morning for me, slept like a log last night and woke up really really late and rush like mayhem to catch my beloved SMRT... However, IT is a simple way of life and I'm enjoying my day...

Reach office pretty late (then my boss) but early cause there were just the two of us... rather stone and decided to make my first KOPI in office... Well, IT firm is IT firm, the selection of coffee machine is impressive enough... made my choice and started brewing my KOPI-O... Didn't want a KOPI-O but... LOL...

Anyway, turn up that the coffee machine's KOPI isn't that bad... well, this made my day, knowing I can have my daily dosage of caffeine~!

As mentioned, I'm a simple guy leading a simple life...
It's a simple life and IT has made is a Simple Simple Life...

:)

Fire Fighters

2007-10-16T18:56:00.000-07:00

Fire Fighting is one of the most well regarded jobs, but like many others in the local context, it has lost its objective and purpose. I'd successfully moved away from my former fire fighting job to yet another...

By definition, "fire fighting" refers to the act of being passive and responsive to the external environmental situation. There is no connotation of good or bad, but just a action.

Personally, I don't like to "fire fight", maybe because I like to be in control. The main reason is that "fire fighting" wears me off badly... to be constantly doing that for a year and now moving on the go it (hopefully) for another two years... I'm not sure if I can do that...

On a biz point of view, I believe in strategic planning; where fire could be avoided...

Prevention and way much better than cure

Putting all these aside, looking towards a (min) 2 years path ahead... all I can do it quickly put out the fire and start implementing some fire safety measures...

It's a tall order to stop the burning... needless to say getting counterparts' support to start preventive measures...

*Sigh*

Right Brain-er or Left Brain-er? I'm a no Brain-er

2007-10-15T01:43:00.000-07:00

Visit the link below to try the real thing:
http://www.news.com.au/dailytelegraph/story/0,22049,22535838-5012895,00.html

The Right Brain vs Left Brain test ... do you see the dancer turning clockwise or anti-clockwise?
If clockwise, then you use more of the right side of the brain and vice versa. Most of us would see the dancer turning anti-clockwise though you can try to focus and change the direction; see if you can do it.

LEFT BRAIN FUNCTIONS

uses logic

detail oriented

facts rule

words and language

present and past

math and science

can comprehend

knowing

acknowledges

order/pattern perception

knows object namereality based

forms strategies

practical

safe

RIGHT BRAIN FUNCTIONS

uses feeling"big picture" oriented

imagination rules

symbols and images

present and future

philosophy & religioncan "get it" (i.e. meaning)believes

appreciates

spatial perception

knows object function

fantasy based

presents possibilities

impetuous

risk taking

Headache...

2007-10-11T02:29:00.001-07:00

Very lousy week for my manager...
without saying much, it wouldn't be good for me either...
Dun wanna nag...
I just wanna go home...

Love you guys...

Beautiful Tuesday

2007-10-08T16:20:00.001-07:00

Well, a really very sleepy Tuesday morning where nothing good could have turn up...

I'd missed my gym session yesterday, was already at somerset when it started pouring cats and dogs... stood there for awhile before I gave up and headed home... so push all my evening appts forward... the top in my mind was to get my season shit tested for this morning... and I did...
cool banana-s...

So even though the Tuesday couldn't be any more better... I'm feeling pretty good... cuz I drove to work this morning...

And yes I woke up 5 plus in the morning, got ready drove on the AYE and watched he sun rise... and reached CBD just before 7 am to beat the sill ERP...

Longer drive as compared to my time in TPY, not real distance but the lousy road planning / network by the ever well loved LTA...

Anyway I hope I could keep this nice feeling up for the rest of the day... I'm not even going to think it'll last longer that 24hrs...

Lousy way to end the week...

2007-10-08T16:20:00.000-07:00

Just to recapture how things went south last week...

Started with tons of work to do which I couldn't really complete due to some I.T. screwed up...
Depended on others to get the finishing touches in all matters...
As a De facto of life, people cannot be depended on...
Well, it's really no big a deal, just really disturbed by the fact that my image with the company has started corroding at such a stage here...

Other than little screw tightening, there had been two news that "made" my Friday ticks.
Understand that the head of Trans wasn't really interested in getting me on board, classifying me as "not suitable"... WTF, even if he was going to me under his wings, I was going to...
This was, in fact is, hurting my little ego just a tiny bit... LOL... Guess nobody likes to face with rejection...
The other news that shocked me slightly is the fact that one of my Mger has been asked to leave the boat... OMG... out of a sudden... Send me re-thinking my path walking Jack Sparrow's wooden plank...

Where it all begins... Singapore River

2007-10-01T01:17:00.001-07:00

* A view from my pantry *

My 1st Day at sea...

2007-09-30T19:03:00.000-07:00

After a year comfort with the well kept and maintained Singapore indoor pool... I'm moving on into the ever dangerous sea... This isn't the first time I'm exposed to the sea...

Formerly I had my fair share of exposure with the Goei family... in fact I'd visit them last week and they are expanding slowly but gradually and gaining a strong foot hold with the local SOHO & high-end resi market...

But this time, I'd diving myself even further away from the local sea and into the great big Asia Pacific... Life will never be the same...

With Jones by my side and Bill paying the bill... I really hope I could out do myself yet again... proving my worth to the great unknown.